January 9, 2024
Signs are everywhere telling us where to go or what not to do. People say there are also signs sent to us from loved ones that have transitioned to that other plane. Some say God sends signs and they are called God Winks. I Googled exactly what that meant and found God Wink (plural God Winks) An event or personal experience, often identified as coincidence, so astonishing that it is seen as a sign of divine intervention especially when perceived as the answer to a prayer.
I have never believed in coincidences. It is too convenient of an explanation for a universe as complex as ours.
While in the hospital one day, I asked David if he thought it was possible that he may be able to find me and watch over me and help me with things. Help me to know what to do and if so, how would I know for sure it was him guiding me? He said of course he would and that he thought I would just know. He said if possible, he would be sure to do something so that I would know it was him. This got me thinking about these signs sent from beyond. Are they from God or from your loved one or are we just desperately more in tune to seeing things we want to see in relation to a loss or prayer request?
Anyway, a day or two after David passed away, SL and Adam were in Walmart looking at Valentine stuff when she saw a coffee mug. She instantly recognized it as a character on the animated show Bluey which David loved to watch. This mug was in the likeness of Bluey’s sister Bingo, and she was holding a SIGN that read “I’LL ALWAYS BE HERE FOR YOU”. She sent me the picture and I was stunned. It had to be from David. Didn’t? I mean, it was a sign holding a sign?! She didn’t leave with it, but thinking about it that night, she went back for it the next day. Incidentally, David collected coffee mugs and we have so many they are in cabinets and shelves and bookcases. So, today, they were back in Walmart (Side note: Adam, being from England where they don’t really have shops like that, loves Walmart and try as we might to persuade him otherwise, he will not be deterred on his quest to visit as many Walmart’s as possible). So, they were just messing around killing time and they happen upon this junky clearance aisle and they spot a Christmas ornament of The Dude. It was just placed in there among random items and there was not another one around. She sent me the picture, and again, I was stunned. I said get it. Again, this is too coincidental to be coincidental right? I mean, that isn’t a current movie. It was from March 1998.
So, I asked David if it was from him. I didn’t feel a response. I asked about my sign because it has been 7 days and I haven’t seen one yet. Or maybe I am not open to it because I am blinded by grief?
I posted the picture on FB in attempt to share things as promised and many people seemed to think it was one of these winks or signs. I had an old friend that has also experienced a great loss, send me a link to a book that attempts to explain these kinds of signs from the universe. I went ahead and got a copy for the Kindle. I am looking forward to reading it as soon as I can focus on anything other than being mired in this misery of missing him so much. Simple tasks are difficult.
