November 26, 2024
I got up early for a grocery pick up and stopped at the pharmacy to refill my anxiety meds. Those are working overtime today. I also took a ride to the cemetery where my dad will rest once the ashes are returned. I went ahead and put the new Christmas flowers on the graves since I had not made it to putting out Fall ones. I had a chat with my grandparents and an uncle I never met. I went back to pick up the meds at the pharmacy and started to cry while sitting in line. There is no rhyme or reason to when the thoughts hit you. It just happens.
Today we had to be in Fayetteville at 2pm. They accessed David’s port and got him going with the Etoposide. This is the short day so we were only there for an hour once it got going. He was not feeling well today and neither of us felt like being there. He left his phone in the car so he asked if I would walk down and get it so I did. There weren’t many in the infusion room today and the nurses were decorating for Christmas. He didn’t feel like playing any games today so we basically just sat and scrolled on our phones watching the time tick down. He was in a bit of sitting pain today and it didn’t let up. He could not get comfortable in the chair and was glad when it was time to go. We headed for the car and home. His beloved McRib is back in town (yuck) and he said he felt like one of those, so I stopped at McDonalds for that. He wasn’t feeling much better when we got home so he just stretched out the couch and waited for his evenings meds to kick in before he ate. I spent the rest of the evening going through old photos looking for ones of my dad for the video tribute. I have not had a chance to cook my cornbread for the dressing I usually make, and honestly, my heart is not in it this year. Especially not now. Maybe I will figure something out sometime tomorrow. Last day of this round of chemo at 2 tomorrow. More hair loss today and continued pain and some nausea.